My mama heart is bursting with so many emotions as the days until I meet you are dwindling down. I have carried you in my belly for the past nine months, feeling every movement and taking in the miracle that is you. I can hardly believe that it is almost time for me to finally carry you in my arms. There are so many things I am imagining about our relationship once you are here, but tonight I want you to know how I feel before I hold you in my arms.
I spend most of my time wondering who you will be. I know God is knitting you together in such a fearful and wonderful way. I feel so strongly that the plans He has for your life are greater than anything I can imagine right now, and I feel so grateful that He has chosen me to love you and guide you towards those plans. I have no doubt you will live up to your middle name, which means beloved. You are already such a beloved part of our little family, and I know the more you grow and the more people you meet, you will become a beloved part of this world. I can't wait to see the paths you take and the marks you leave.
I am so excited for the journey we are about to start together. I can't wait to see your face and hear you cry for the very first time. I know I will never want to put you down and plan to snuggle you forever. So many people have told me about the love between boys and their mamas, and I know we will be no different. I have loved every second of the last nine months, but I know what is about to come will be a joy that can't compare.
This is the week our lives change forever. As you enter into this big place where you’ve never been, know that I am also entering into a place where I have never been – the sacred place of motherhood. We both will probably feel a little out of place for a while, but I know we will both find comfort in being together in our new unknowns. Whatever comes in our new roles as mama and baby, always know that I am here for you as we both grow and change. I am so certain that I was born to be your mama.
I am more ready than ever to see you face-to-face. Thank you for being so good to me these last nine months. You have made pregnancy my favorite stage of my life, and I have loved being the safe place you call home. Thankfully I still get to be your safe place, and I promise to always be that for you in every stage of your life. You will always be safe, never be alone, and forever be loved, my sweet baby.
I can’t wait to read this letter to you when you are old enough to understand. Until then, I will remind you every day that there is no one on Earth who loves you as much as I do. I’m waiting with the sweetest anticipation for your birthday, which will be the greatest day of my life. Though you will be living on the outside of my body, you will always be a part of me. I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always. As long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.
Love always,
Your Mama
